All is well haven't had much time to write much been busy.
IVe been doing my art again which im not sure if its a good idea or not. I love creating but at the same time I know I become obsessed and can loose track of other things. Im hoping to have a show of my latest work I just need to find a good venue for it.
well im tired, going to bed now....
Friday, November 30, 2012
Friday, November 16, 2012
Relationships and being homeless
Needless to say its not easy to have a relationship with someone when you homeless. The reason I mention this is because lately for what ever reason I have become somewhat popular with the opposite sex. Im not trying to brag, believe me I have no reason for bragging when it comes to women. Im not afraid to admit Im pretty much clueless when it come to the opposite sex.
But for some cruel reason I have had a few girls all of the sudden find me incredibly attractive. And excuse me for bragging this one time (even tho I said I wouldnt) but they are half my age and smoking hot!
So here is the problem, Im homeless. I cant exactly take them back to my place, and even tho im a guy I hate to lye to them but if I tell them the truth what happens if they decide to tell the world my problems? It could ruin me.
Luckily one of these girls was just looking for a one night stand and we spent it at her house. I was willing to make it more than that and tell her the truth if the relationship progressed but it doesn't look like thats what she wanted. There are a couple of other girls that are also interested in me but I think one was under the assumption that I had money (no idea why) so when I mentioned I was kind of broke right now she just kind of disappeared.
The other girl I just don't know what to do. She is nice very attractive but young around 22 (im a bit older) and she lives at home. I think im just going to have to see what happens, its not like we could really have a relationship. I mean why the heck would she want to go out with a homeless guy? That would freak me out if a girl told me the same thing before I was homeless.
Im also afraid they would ask me to move in with them if I did try to to start a relationship and I told them about my situation. I know that sounds weird being homeless and all but I really don't think it would be fair to them to just jump into a relationship like that and expect them to let me just move in with them.
ANy way I guess its nice to have these problems right now. It definitely makes life interesting.
But for some cruel reason I have had a few girls all of the sudden find me incredibly attractive. And excuse me for bragging this one time (even tho I said I wouldnt) but they are half my age and smoking hot!
So here is the problem, Im homeless. I cant exactly take them back to my place, and even tho im a guy I hate to lye to them but if I tell them the truth what happens if they decide to tell the world my problems? It could ruin me.
Luckily one of these girls was just looking for a one night stand and we spent it at her house. I was willing to make it more than that and tell her the truth if the relationship progressed but it doesn't look like thats what she wanted. There are a couple of other girls that are also interested in me but I think one was under the assumption that I had money (no idea why) so when I mentioned I was kind of broke right now she just kind of disappeared.
The other girl I just don't know what to do. She is nice very attractive but young around 22 (im a bit older) and she lives at home. I think im just going to have to see what happens, its not like we could really have a relationship. I mean why the heck would she want to go out with a homeless guy? That would freak me out if a girl told me the same thing before I was homeless.
Im also afraid they would ask me to move in with them if I did try to to start a relationship and I told them about my situation. I know that sounds weird being homeless and all but I really don't think it would be fair to them to just jump into a relationship like that and expect them to let me just move in with them.
ANy way I guess its nice to have these problems right now. It definitely makes life interesting.
Obamacare
Ok I usually like to stay away from political crap but since I have some experiance with this Im going to go ahead and tell you all a story.
As I have mentioned in the past I was self employed for 12 years. For much of that time I didnt have health insurance because I couldn't afford it. Ive always had issues with my back but a couple of years ago It really started to bother me to the extent I couldn't stand the pain any more. My only option was to go to a clinic that excepted people with no insurance and helped people without a lot of money pay there bills.
So I made an appointment to see the doc there. It took several weeks before I could see someone because the clinic is always so busy. My first visit the doc basicaly gave me some Ibuprophen and told me if it wasnt any better in a few weeks to come back. Well it didnt get any better so I made another appointment witch took about another month to see the doc again. Now realize this whole time Im in a huge amound of pain to the extent I couldn barly get out of bed in the morning and it took several hours of walking around before I could stand upright.
So after my second visit to the doctor he tells me he thinks it best If I get physical therapy. Ok. Im thinking we are getting somewhere, so I call them up to make an appointment. Guess what its going to be another month before I can see anyone...
If your keeping track its been over 2 months and still have some serious pain. I should mention that I did go to the emergency room at one point because the pain was so bad and they gave me some stronger meds. The meds helped the pain some but really doesn't help in the long run and after the meds run out im just in pain again.
So I finally get to do some physical therapy and im thinking my back if finally going to start getting better. But I couldn't have been more wrong.
Without going into too much detail after 3 weeks of physical therapy my back is worse than ever.
Yea thats right worse. Its one of those things where you trust the people your working with. I mean "do no harm" right! And I just did what they told me to do even when I felt in my gut my back wasn't getting any better and told them the stuff they had me do was painful and it felt like my back wasn't getting any better they just ignored me and kept doing there thing.
I look back at that now and now and know they were just going though the motions with me and since I didn't have insurance they new they weren't getting any money from me so why should they even try to fix the problem.
Ok so know I can barley walk after 3 months of waiting and doctor appointments and useless physical therapy.
Now my doctor is telling me Im going to have to go the "pain clinic". Which is where they basically give you a shot of I think steroids in your back to elevate the pain and help strengthen your back. THe problem with this is every time you get one of these shots your back deteriorates a little and in the long run gets much worse.
I make an appointment with the pain clinic and guess what? Its going to be 3 more weeks before they can see me!
Joy of joys 3 more weeks of being in a huge amount of pain. I can barley get out of be in the morning, I cant do much work if any, Im having a hard time paying my bills because I cant work and Im falling into a great deal of depression and wondering if its would be better just to end my life.
Yea it was that bad and no im not exaggerating! I put some serious thought into suicide.
But there is a silver lining around this cloud. The last time I saw my doctor and he thought it best to go to the pain clinic he also thought it would be a good idea to get a visit from a new group who worked with people in my situation. Its another type of physical therapy where they come to your house and show you how to do some exercises and also check out your home for possible issues that might be causing the pain to begin with like the mattress in your bed or if you have chairs and such that could be causing back pain. I think the name of the company was Invictus but cant be positive because this all happened several years ago.
So this is what happened. They show up at my house about a week later and basically did a bunch of paper work, assess my back pain and tell me I need to get one of those rubber inflatable exercise balls. A few days later this lady shows up and shows me how to do a few simple stretches.
Oh my god! I cannot tell you how much better I felt almost immediately! It was like.. I don't know something wonderful like riding a unicorn while eating a gallon of ice cream with a nakid supermodel riding in my lap kind of wonderful!
Literally within a week my back is 100% better. I canceled my appointment with the "pain clinic" and life is good again.
So this took about 4 months and all I needed was a freaking exercise ball and someone to show me how to do some stretches....
So after all of this do I think Obamacare is a good Idea?
Yes!
As I have mentioned in the past I was self employed for 12 years. For much of that time I didnt have health insurance because I couldn't afford it. Ive always had issues with my back but a couple of years ago It really started to bother me to the extent I couldn't stand the pain any more. My only option was to go to a clinic that excepted people with no insurance and helped people without a lot of money pay there bills.
So I made an appointment to see the doc there. It took several weeks before I could see someone because the clinic is always so busy. My first visit the doc basicaly gave me some Ibuprophen and told me if it wasnt any better in a few weeks to come back. Well it didnt get any better so I made another appointment witch took about another month to see the doc again. Now realize this whole time Im in a huge amound of pain to the extent I couldn barly get out of bed in the morning and it took several hours of walking around before I could stand upright.
So after my second visit to the doctor he tells me he thinks it best If I get physical therapy. Ok. Im thinking we are getting somewhere, so I call them up to make an appointment. Guess what its going to be another month before I can see anyone...
If your keeping track its been over 2 months and still have some serious pain. I should mention that I did go to the emergency room at one point because the pain was so bad and they gave me some stronger meds. The meds helped the pain some but really doesn't help in the long run and after the meds run out im just in pain again.
So I finally get to do some physical therapy and im thinking my back if finally going to start getting better. But I couldn't have been more wrong.
Without going into too much detail after 3 weeks of physical therapy my back is worse than ever.
Yea thats right worse. Its one of those things where you trust the people your working with. I mean "do no harm" right! And I just did what they told me to do even when I felt in my gut my back wasn't getting any better and told them the stuff they had me do was painful and it felt like my back wasn't getting any better they just ignored me and kept doing there thing.
I look back at that now and now and know they were just going though the motions with me and since I didn't have insurance they new they weren't getting any money from me so why should they even try to fix the problem.
Ok so know I can barley walk after 3 months of waiting and doctor appointments and useless physical therapy.
Now my doctor is telling me Im going to have to go the "pain clinic". Which is where they basically give you a shot of I think steroids in your back to elevate the pain and help strengthen your back. THe problem with this is every time you get one of these shots your back deteriorates a little and in the long run gets much worse.
I make an appointment with the pain clinic and guess what? Its going to be 3 more weeks before they can see me!
Joy of joys 3 more weeks of being in a huge amount of pain. I can barley get out of be in the morning, I cant do much work if any, Im having a hard time paying my bills because I cant work and Im falling into a great deal of depression and wondering if its would be better just to end my life.
Yea it was that bad and no im not exaggerating! I put some serious thought into suicide.
But there is a silver lining around this cloud. The last time I saw my doctor and he thought it best to go to the pain clinic he also thought it would be a good idea to get a visit from a new group who worked with people in my situation. Its another type of physical therapy where they come to your house and show you how to do some exercises and also check out your home for possible issues that might be causing the pain to begin with like the mattress in your bed or if you have chairs and such that could be causing back pain. I think the name of the company was Invictus but cant be positive because this all happened several years ago.
So this is what happened. They show up at my house about a week later and basically did a bunch of paper work, assess my back pain and tell me I need to get one of those rubber inflatable exercise balls. A few days later this lady shows up and shows me how to do a few simple stretches.
Oh my god! I cannot tell you how much better I felt almost immediately! It was like.. I don't know something wonderful like riding a unicorn while eating a gallon of ice cream with a nakid supermodel riding in my lap kind of wonderful!
Literally within a week my back is 100% better. I canceled my appointment with the "pain clinic" and life is good again.
So this took about 4 months and all I needed was a freaking exercise ball and someone to show me how to do some stretches....
So after all of this do I think Obamacare is a good Idea?
Yes!
Saturday, November 3, 2012
Beautiful Sleep
I finally got a sleeping bag to keep me warm at night and it is wonderful!
Its a cheap $40.00 coleman but it dropped to about 30 degrees last night and was totally comfortable. It so nice to get a good nights sleep.
that is all...
Its a cheap $40.00 coleman but it dropped to about 30 degrees last night and was totally comfortable. It so nice to get a good nights sleep.
that is all...
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