Trying to dumb myself down

Yea thats kind of pathetic but that is exactly what I have been doing over the last few months. I used to read, watch documentaries, go to art museums and art happenings here in Cincinnati. I used to always try to improve myself and keep up with current world events.

But I just cant do it anymore, whenever I try to inspire myself to do anything it just gets me all fired up which always leads to disappointment. I just can’t deal with the failure any more.

I know that sound messed up but for the time being at least I’m just going to turn myself into another ignorant American. Head to the grind stone and just do what the boss tells me, I think I will just be happier that way.